I have a problem of letting go
Every person that came in my life, even if they annoy me, has sort of an impact in my life. And this applies especially for old friends that I truly felt connected to.
I know I should not expect all old friends feel the same as I feel for them but I just can’t seem to take that awful feeling that this person/s I treat special or at least has been a part of my life has chosen to make me or our relationship as his/her past.
Same goes to friends or family that just acts like a friend or a family member when they need something. I always find myself justifying their behavior just to tell myself that they’re not using me or taking advantage.
I find it hard to let go of the pain that someone or a certain situation gave me. I realized I hold on to these things to remind me to be cautious so I won’t get hurt again. However, by holding on to the pain and hurt I am unconsciously causing myself pain and doubt.